feeling lost rite now... dunno what is my goal.. dunno what is my motive... duno what is the point of me living in this world... yet, i am still living rite here rite now...

i've lost smth great/important to mi.. and i'm starting to regret it now... actually.. still in a dilemia whether its forever lost into the other dimension, or izzit that i've forgotten how to resist and to fight for it..

hav been thinking about the things that happened that day.. of course i felt smth.. i'm not that stoned-hearted as u think i am... i dunno if i shld jus giv it all out, or shld i jus sit quietly in one corner of the room and cry by myself...

if ur're reading this particular entry rite now, i must say i'm sorry... i'm sry for the things that i've done... i noe its not the first time already... but i jus dunno y i did that...

there are indeed more things i wanna tell u.. but.. it aint appropriate for mi to say it here... hope u can understand...